i know i enjoy it but am i fine with this much? do i really feel any worse or am i just worried?

vagueposting. i feel a bit bad about it tbh? but do i feel bad because of what my parents would think or are these my real feelings?

i swear some people think stoic character = jerk

rule #1 is "if i ignore it enough, it no longer matters"

Today's Fear Is Nonexistence

ONE HAS BECOME MORE GELATINOUS

what da heeelll

neck hurts. still. definitely helping with my anxiety about the whole thing (lie)

sneezed and it sounded like i was dying painfully

paint tastes different in my head.

100 gecs

and pressure cook my balls

i love toni and i want him to have a warm nap

affirmations: more than one person cares about what i say

whatever. genuinely, whatever

people will never make sense and maybe that's fine, i don't make sense either

the uterus. is killing me

need a man who can sing weird al's "fat" and mean every word of it

another day with this (actually think i'm coming out of it maybe though!)

need to relax, just in general. everything has me either antsy or annoyed