Took four pills because track is beating my ass

Im going to fucking lose it

Comfort...

It's beautiful

One more day, one more day, what is one more?

Never once is my father on time for me, am I ever a priority?

If you wanna flay me let's see what's inside

Go ahead.. yell at me for little reason, it's okay

I was wrong

I wish I could rip my chest open and show everyone how ugly I am on the inside

Im tired

Oh well, back to scrolling, I don't have time

I'm such a selfish little bitch

I want to stop feeling but then I'll start to yearn for emotion again, will I ever have enough

Even if it were to, I don't deserve it, my life is so perfect, so, so, perfect, I shouldn't feel anything but happy

Would help come to me if blood where dripping off my hands?

But, alas I feel miserable and feel miserable for feeling miserable, and the cycle continues

But I was born into a privileged white family, in privileged America, so I have no right to be miserable

Sometimes I wish I had real problems, that way I can stop feeling guilty for being miserable

Got called a bitch:)