I'm going to be the reason the person I love most dies.

FUCK

How many failures will it take for me to stop fucking trying

I can't fucking do anything right

I can't just for once be fucking competent

I've ruined things for two people today

This is the worst screw up of my life

Oh my god

I'm going to be a murderer

Oh my god

Oh my god.

Worst FUCKING time to make a typo

I didn't even clear five feet (I've cleared 7 before)

I fucked it up so bad I'm so sorry

Panic panic panic

I think I'm just going to melt down now

My chest hurts, I can't fucking breath, fuck, my head hurts, fuck

I feel so fucking nauseous

I want to do the right thing, but I don't know what the right thing is

Stomach hurts...