v0nu_94 π 6 days ago
why does this taste like mold
Some stuff I wrote earlier...
"Now, I see and recognize what I am, the contrast between my conscience and my mask, now, I see my wickedness, my evil, my venom, all within me and undoubtedly me. But, I also see my naivety and my ignorance, my joy and excitement, somehow, also me?
I see the stupid one and the one that knows too much, the glasses and the microscope, all weighing in my Self, all me.
I see a Self, consumed, tormented by the horrors of living, forced to ignore the Shadow, and faced with the challenge of keeping the two beasts: What once was, and what we wish we could return to, and what we are and become, what we run after but still fear. "
"At this very moment, I am met with the reality of being, I see my wickedness taken from, I see the corruption characteristic of a Human Being. Homo Sapiens? No, for they- no, we? We are beings made of hatred and ambition, both things good in small quantities, but always taken too far, like alcohol, we slowly poison ourselves with these feelings, allowing ourselves to be controlled by them, shaped by them, fused into them, and with this knowledge I crown myself as the accursed 'wise' man, the one whose hands strike but whose mind wishes to caress, I know far too much yet nothing can be done about it- I think yet cannot act."
why does this taste like mold
everything and everyone is so, so, SO exhausting...
seeing good art makes me wanna draw less... :(
Getting into Party Cannon...
I should sleep... staying up l8 coding in neocities isn't helping w/ anything....
Could these ppl @ the gym js... put their weights away? I'm not that strong vroπ
Coding in HTML CSS is so fun rn... My pf is fire!
uhh would I like or dislike the German garbage separating system... i h8 it when ppl js throw dirty recyclable stuff in the recycable bin...
sooo eeeepppyyy..... urgh I should js sleep atp