i cant give people what they want anymore. i deserve to rest too

maybe its time to really just ditch tumblr. it continues to bring me pain for multiple reasons

i love vulnerability. *coughs up blood*

maybe the point is that i should just be doing it anyway. putting the thoughts out there. letting myself be known even if no one cares. a solo dance with viewers that don’t clap, and i don’t care, i’m too immersed in the music.

my "safe space" has been compromised by my vulnerability and now i compulsively avoid it because i'm embarrassed

LOVE IS FOR FOOLS, 'CAUSE NOBODY GIVES A FUCK

i just hate that i felt so good and accomplished and now i'm crying my eyes out

i just simply don't have enough energy to "give" people what they "want" anymore, if there was anything worth taking.

i feel so humiliated i could cry. i spent hours writing something i thought i cooked with and it feels like they barely cared

every person i have ever known has hurt me in a way i will never recover from because i am not made for this fucking planet

everyone around me is cartoonishly evil. youre all fucked up and im the normal one being gaslit

maybe television was wrong about how conversations actually go. maybe only certain people are allowed to speak and i'm the only one who shouldn't be talking.

why do people even fucking talk to me if they don't care what i say. all that's important is you. i will never be important to anyone

stop making me feel like garbage or i'll change the trajectory of your life :)

my beloved lavender would never do this to me

its a trigger. it will go away eventually. the feelings will go away eventually. ill be ok again

i want to post art. but am scared.

i think im god in my own little way

thats 2 friends who werent happy for me when i told them im moving out. they KNOW how much ive suffered here. when do i get to be happy?

i knew he wouldnt be happy for me, so why did i tell him? when will i just cut this person off. maybe when i get some real self esteem