Healing my inner child while my inner teenager is screaming

When i got into that relationship my self esteem was extremely low so as fucked up as it sounds…im happy to be single?

okay cool so my ex did like me at some point she’s just too emotional unavailable to be in a relationship right now which tbh….is fine

I’m not trying to become a better person to make her jealous. I’m simply channeling my anger into something productive.

Feminine rage is good. I don’t want to be the angel of the house. I want to be bitter & difficult to love. Vengeful.

how she treated me last is the most recent version of her.

Writing blog posts is free therapy

i hate feeling anger. it's not who i am at all. i am love and light

I am irritated because I am feeling cognitive dissonance about my recent break up.

I am irritated because I am experiencing a change in routine

I really do think that we were “right people, wrong time”.

Escapism. by 070 Shake and Raye

I thought about cutting up the animals she crocheted for me, but i started crying when I attempted to do it. Stuffed away in a drawer now.

My partner broke up with me and im hurting. Nothing hurts your self concept more than being told that they crafted an identity for you.

Feelings that I had growing up about wasting time and needing to be loved by everyone are resurfacing :-)

Other people's mistreatment of me is a reflection of them & not my character

I know that i'll be okay but honestly? I am sad and hurting right now. And that's okay too.

I understand that this might not have anything to do with me, but my feelings are valid too & i deserve to process them any way i need to

I don’t even know if i should be annoyed, angry, or concerned at this point.

I miss you