man I wish I didn't have a severe seasonal depression, I really want to love autumn. It's so beautiful and everything but me seems peaceful

also i have an idea for remaking my site and im super excited to develop it more!!!! it will take time tho haha

i'm feeling much better mentally!!! my joints are still in pain but im waiting for my meds to work and for a doctors appointment nod nod

my joint pains got really bad again, really suddenly. even sitting completely still hurts more and more :( my temperature spikes sometimes

i just don't love the things i create anymore. i dont love the process itself either. i spend my days imagining being ripped apart

it's really hard to keep going

schoolwork. i want to sleep. my tummy hurts. it's so cold in my room. at least Tofu (my cat) is feeling really cuddly in this weather

I'm on the train to see my freakish boyfriend I'M SO EXCITED!!!!! we see each other so often lately, it's so nice...

BOYFRIEND ON FRIDAY!!!! we're going to a con near him with a bunch of friends and I'm super excited!! just a bit nervous... ^^'

aaaahhh... I'm less depressed but now my anxiety is out of controll again @_@ + yesterday I spent 11+ hours playing sims 4 non stop

im so depressed idk what to do anymore. literally everything makes me miserable

ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!! I LOVE WATCHING REELS IN BED WITH MY BOYFRIEND

at least i got some stronger painkillers so it's bearable for now. at least I can play the sims

gahh... I need to get tested for rheumatism, my mom told me it's genetic on her side... i'm seriously so stressed about this :(

my bday is on the 21st!!!!!! im so excited (mostly for the party and seeing arlo, not turning 23 LOL )

its getting really hard to draw because of my joint pains... my hands are so sore, I work so slowly... not sure what to do

its all fine now tho!! im back to my puter but i still wont be active anywhere much bc my bf is visiting me soon!! :D

one of my drives was damaged somehow so I couldnt do any coding or drawing @_@ thank god the one where i keep all my files is all fine!

i'll try to use this day to grind artfight like crazy

I WANT TO RP SO BADLYYYY I WANT TO RP!!! WITH MY BF!!! WITH MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!! pierwiastkowe save me......