leg is in stabbing intermittent bursts of pain. the fuck

washed my hair and washed the dishes. feeling normaller

going through a weird phase of life lately where i've been hardly in contact with people i know. unsure how to feel about it

also fairly sure the caffeine was pulling double duty for the chronic pain and adhd. oopsies

to be seen is to be known is to be loved, to be thought of- remembered- i matter! i matter to YOU! isn't that special?

(suddenly remembers my big brother mentioning he thinks of me often when we're out of contact) ouagh. my heart

literallyyyyy just dont trust anything your brain conjures when you havent washed your hair. its so true!

secondguessing myself like crazy about if i should type or if i should handwrite. why is my brain like this

tearing out pages seems like its all im doing as of late. frustrated. still haunted by a novel that demands to be written

dopamine machine broken asf for feeling of accomplishment. capacity to endure suffering to get results? through the roof

deeply funny to me that i really said 'um. im saying i DONT have a caffeine addiction anymore actually' and just. did that

i was missing the smell of coffee but made a weak cup and immediately couldnt finish it. a win, caffeine addiction wise

antibiotics are like, the epitome of frenemy. yayyy for nuking infections. OH DEAR GOD the horrors it wrecks on the body.

nothing is quite as humiliating as attempting to eat a fried egg that is too hard to cut + too big to fit into your mouth easily. jesus

mouth scar is bothering me. not that it hurts or anything, just irked at how it drags my mouth into a little frown

kewpie mayo on some toast with cheese sprinkled on top. delicious night snack in place of a missed dinner

slapping around code takes awhile but once ive got it set up to be easy to update, its a breeze

read a book and took NOTES while doing so. perhaps my brain is not sludge after all

troubleshooting having a human body like uhhhh ok maybe i’ll chug this glass of water and devour a chunk of food and see how i feel after

heard from my big brother today. yippee! wish news was better on his end, but always good to hear from the guy