you can tell the depression is getting worse because i begin seriously contemplating becoming catholic again. lmao

bitter little cynical bastard. im basically a crime noir detective, come to think of it

*experiences symptoms and horrors* oh. right. i have major depressive disorder,

vague feelings of insecurity and lack of accomplishment more like? hm. not going to think about that

bro i’ve been losing my mind. just realized after going to refill i had never put tea bags into my cup and never. noticed

it’s funny how fast corners of the internet can start to feel like home. missing the forums already LOL

ate a nice big crunchy carrot and going to have a delicious bagel with my favourite cream cheese spread on it. getting better at eatingtimes

i need to sit down and watch hannibal nbc maybe. maybe that’ll fix me lol. could work on a roman portrait while doing so…

bit of a cruel reality check to use, but it doesn’t hurt to be mindful of one’s conduct, i suppose

the soft yellow paint in this room is deeply, deeply funny. talk about heavyhanded allusions to literature eh

i've been shading out days on the big wall calendar. still losing time. this is kind of driving me mad i think

need to Do More Activities i think. i can feel the depressive slump creeping in around the edges and uhm, not allowed

i'm like its OK. if i was one of my cute fandom blorbos then id be delighted about the slanted smirk my mouth scar causes. smh

ugh. realized that my mouth scar SIGNIFICANTLY changes the profile of my smile and has gotten worse with the recent reopening...

haven't written in a little while and it's driving me up the wall i think actually

eating sugar cookies :-) decorated with blue icing and sprinkles

we are making SUGAR COOKIES!!! in heart shapes. will decorate when out of the oven

ok looking into it apparently the drink i got is 80ish mg of caffeine. not bad. i might be a bit wired but it shouldnt cause a sharp crash

large matcha bubble tea after cutting my caffeine down to 90mg daily. this might kill me

ate a bowl of warm noodles. feeling good