being so deeply, deeply unwell that multiple specialist therapists soft-fire you via referral out to more advanced care is an experience

re-framing psychotic symptoms as just being god's favourite special little babycat angel. or whatever

tbh at this point the persistence of the secondary symptoms probably qualifies me for psychotic depression. fuck it we ball

i have one (1) person who loves me and im like yeah thats sufficient to not go evil mousebites. i guess

you can't keep carrying it all by yourself. it's like dragging a corpse behind you. eventually you have to let go

anyway, onto better and brighter things, i guess

for the love of fucking god why the FUCK does fallen london keep logging me out. jesus fucking christ

been getting incredibly restless. that's a good sign of gearing up to doing something i think

crippled but not in an inspiring way, in a 'disgusts and evokes revulsion and disdain' sorta crippled

unrepentant cripplepunk but my god. sometimes i wish my body would stop trying to dissolve into blood and foam

perhaps the worst of my burnout has ended after like. a year of rest. *gets run over by my genetic disorder*

the sheer capacity for cruelty and kindness that every person is capable of simultaneously is crazy. ngl

*thinking about something nice my big brother said to me* ok. im normaller now

it's so weird to have people who are alive be like, dead to you. that's so crazy! consigning you to the graveyard mentally

tears of thermis has so much content i feel like im trying to drink from a fucking firehose when i play it ahfiughhufdh

something so genuinely disturbing about the ghosts of your past. more poetry, stat

my brother and i syncing up on PERISHING.exe is crazy tbh. glad to hear he’s doing better now though

yayy. love it when reaching out works

artem and luke... zayne and caleb... i truly am predictable in my tastes. oopsies

ngl tears of thermis makes me use my brain even marginally while gaming with the anime husbandos and its surprisingly effortful lmfao