have my menses. lord above help me i am a wretched little beast at the moment. hilarious moment to use the period tracker in LADS though

being sick and tired but not tired enough to sleep is miserable. also running a fever...

ngl i completely forgot LADS had an extra area just for combat. super nice to scrape up diamonds for the valentines event lol

norovirus is beating me to death in the corner and it SUCKS. ive been listless in bed and exhausted for like. 6 hours. to scrape up spoons

limped to the finish line of pretty-ifying up my personal blog and then crashed and burned on energy at the end to. write a post. lmao

good lord the toasted broccoli is AMAZING with the barest drizzle of sesame dressing. brings out the nuttiness beautifully

beautiful functional eating habits. aka i’m off the wagon and have eaten two pounds of plain air fryer broccoli and three mini custard buns

vomited so much i broke the goddamn plumbing. girl help. anyways it’s partially resolved and i’ve crawled back into bed. feel exorcised

my necklace snapped when i was adjusting my goddamn sweater. fixed it with a pair of scissors and some bending silver wire

i've been struck down with norovirus. twice in literally less than two months

cannot stop thinking about that house md quote. fuck

i’m going to literally cry myself to sleep because it’s better to at least be comfortable in bed while weeping like a child

the only thing really worth saying would be that i’m sorry dan

really fiending for the euphoric calm of accepting what is going to happen but instead i’ve just been sobbing for hours. pathetic

anyways if you withdraw and slow fade it means you have nothing to feel guilty over. it’s easier that way. and i’ve been doing great at that

it’s inhumane to expect someone to live like this. i can’t do it anymore

debating writing a note for the nth time but it’s pointless and doesn’t matter because no one’s reading it. ugh ugh ugh

okay back to hanging out on the suicide forum i guess because complete strangers are kinder than my supposed friends. researching methods

it all really distills down to me being incredibly upset at realizing how little i mean to anyone and how meaningless my existence is. ouch

not a single person in my life asides from my older brother, who has been MIA for health reasons would give a shit if i died. incredibly sad