I lied I didn’t leave fl in aug. got pushed to sept and then my bf disappeared so I’m stuck here. This is the worst pain I’ve ever felt.

can’t log in bc neocities won’t send a pass reset email. Also came back to some weird messages in the chatbox. Leaving fl in aug. That’s it.

I want to come back on here and revamp the site when I’m able. Rn just waiting to get out of FL. Srsly so restless to leave already.

I’m still alive, just haven’t updated the site in months. Trying to find a job with no luck 😥

I started Prozac yesterday and idk how to feel. I had the worst panic attack and DP last night. Feel like I’m living in a nightmare.

Thought my bf was dead this morning but he’s not. Now my day doesn’t seem so bad

I want to be positive but I have no food no money no way to pay for thyroid meds no way to get around. I feel like everything is against me.

How to get over fear of flying as someone with severe anxiety and depersonalization…!!!

As soon as I start seeing a slight improvement in my mental health, my physical health gets worse. Go figure

Just finding out about Kazuki Takahashi, RIP :(

Some family members were able to pay for 1 month of therapy for me, so there’s something.

I feel like I’m in a thick cloud of smoke 24/7 lately dpdr sucks so much. I haven’t felt this disconnected and numb since it first started

Perfume’s Spinning World made me feel emotions again

Take 2 planes or wait 3 months to take a cruise ship 🫤 lowkey would rather take the ship but the wait time both before and during the ride..

I’ve been watching season 1 of the real world all day and the constant tilted camera angle is so funny to me

Idk how my brain is ever going to transition out of survival mode when my mind can never get a break. I just want 1 day of peace and quiet

Working on new site for future worldbuilding project ✍️

Was looking at meetup groups in Auckland and was interested in urban sketchers. But then I get insecure abt my art/social skills 😔

Now that I’m more familiar with flexbox and media query, I feel like I should redo my whole site to be more responsive. But also ugh..

Was able to make a basic layout with flexbox and media queries. Rewarding myself with ffxiv