have been and am still for a while longer going through Nightmare Hell so nothing new for a bit longer..! i want to get back into it..wahhhh

when i have both my sweet cats sleeping cuddled together in my lap i feel so overwhelmed with tenderness providing them this love and safety

i love ain i love ain i love ain i love ain i can persevere through this hellish nightmare situation because i love ain

health is worsening but i persevere...

FIXED MY DAMN PC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO UPDATE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pc is exploding again and idk if that bastard's coming back this time. we will see when i can get back to stuff again. i hate using my phone

it kind of sucks to be so invested in fashion but so afraid to talk about it because everyone is So mean about clothes

watched night is short, walk on girl... ah, i want to live... really, truly, i want to live no matter what...

surgery seems to have gone well! suffering from a lot of brain fog but it is what it is

baby's first surgery tomorrow...

ain new chibi for 18th anni and hes doing v for victory i feel ill i miss him

komagawa uta (CLUTCHING HEAD, WRITHING IN UNIMAGINABLE AGONY)

it is too damn cold!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how lovely it would be to be a doll, not acting but acted upon, still and pretty and beloved . . .

i cant pretend it doesnt hurt

SOMETHING SCARY IS HAPPENING TO MY SSD.

hard drive appears to be dying, regardless I'm not able to access PC atm so no updates until it's resolved 😣

had to reset my pc, so dealing with the long & arduous process of restoring everything. always remember to make external backups!!! (pain)

my birthday was on the 20th (waking up from a week-long underwater haze)

my birthday is in a week...