is there a way to cultivate inner self-motivation? i can only feel energized when i have someone to rival or when someone is really cool...

i have so much work to do i'm so happy lol, finally something to stir my blood!!

just the perfect amount of chilly today :]

today's being a shitshow. i woke up nauseous, w/ no energy to spare, & now, when i *want* to write my thesis my wrists are killing me ffs

why do i keep waking up with -90% energy bro...

i can't be near her i'm going insane i can't do it i feel like there's someone standing over my ribs everything hurts & i'm dazed

save me motivational verilgil save me

maybe it's silence & isolation that will heal me

now i know why some dogs chew & snarl at their own legs.