i avoided this goddamn task coz it was "too laborious" & it took me only ONE HOUR to finish it bro https://i.pinimg.com/736x/f4/63/6c/f4636c91a2c029c7686a8d11fa527b54.jpg i hate myself

i'm just tired of living aimlessly & having no confidence in my choices

had a dream about this childhood friend whom i admire/envy a lot... it shouldn't hurt this much. why couldn't i just be like him...?

apparently i am a loser™... at least i had some vigor when i was an e3...

k, rn is probably the best time to isolate myself from everything. cya in two to three weeks, bye.

don't you just hate being forced to do something you don't agree with just bc someone else decided it's the "right thing to do" & if you refuse to do it ppl will hate you?

i guess i don't wanna write anything long, i just wanna be bitter, self-loathing, play a victim, & magically get what i want.

god, i hate feeling like a loser.

is there a way to cultivate inner self-motivation? i can only feel energized when i have someone to rival or when someone is really cool...

i have so much work to do i'm so happy lol, finally something to stir my blood!!

just the perfect amount of chilly today :]

today's being a shitshow. i woke up nauseous, w/ no energy to spare, & now, when i *want* to write my thesis my wrists are killing me ffs

why do i keep waking up with -90% energy bro...

i can't be near her i'm going insane i can't do it i feel like there's someone standing over my ribs everything hurts & i'm dazed

save me motivational verilgil save me

maybe it's silence & isolation that will heal me

now i know why some dogs chew & snarl at their own legs.