survive. this isnt what life is for, and therefore i need to die to end this suffering. i need to die for many other reasons too thats

when i have nothing to "tickle" my brain, im stuck here repeating the same routine, no family/friends at all, just working minimum wage to

it "tickles" your brain, if you get what im saying! thats the whole point of this life, to spend time with who you love

they have friends/family... the fact they celebrate holidays, hangout, make plans, spend time with eachother makes everyday worth living

like T made me so happy i was willing to live forever for them, which DOES make sense! people dont go insane with the same routine when

i feel so... reborn. im so much more closer to my death now. the last 7-8 months i was off my fated path for some reason

i'm not a singer nor do i vocal train so its basically karaoke but with more effort thats all :/

i'm doing a cover of kerch by heelflip soon!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i hope it turns out good?

like aaa omg ive been making these tapes for 3 years & im finally on my 22nd!!!! that makes me so happy, i wonder how much more there'll be

skin the sun, fall asleep, wish away, soul is cheap

Lisa (Does It Hurt You?)

meow

currently my hobby of asmr makes me $200 or less a month. I hope it can become a livable wage for me someday, thatd help me sm :(

Always choose love.

i think my souls being stubborn because choosing love means i have to visit russia before i die, whether i like it or not.

knowing im probably gonna die 30m away from where he did makes me melt... & if not there, then the place he wanted to visit here. aaa <3

id gladly do this life if i had family/friends but when u dont have that then all im working for is... material things/to survive. thats it.

erm what tha sigma

it feels good to scream into the void here but if i ever gained an audience id have to stop lmfao

i cant wait to meet him.. <3