It feels like I've been numbing lots of shit, now I feel sorry for this world

I have the habit of making things worse for me

love is not for me I was born to be a villain

why am I so good at doing bad things ?

I think I'm in love with Grasshoppers

I can't wait to get busy

you know it's serious when you start listening to Gunadasa Kapuge on repeat all day long

I'm just disoriented that's all

the insane desire to feel loved unconditionally fueling the loneliness, cooking up some messed up plan that would make things worse

leaving behind the chaos and moving forward with the self realizations

The Handsome Family - Far From Any Road

I'm in love with NIRI

I still can't comprehend how lucky most people are and they don't even value their luck

I feel so small & I hate feeling small

I'm emotionally & physically unavailable & it always has been like that

I don't get how life can be this precious and fragile at the same time

Life without social media was always more peaceful I should get back to it

I should seriously consider rewiring myself even if it's fucking hard I can't go on like this

how do I dug myself out of this grave I dug for myself ? I fucking hate this dull endless days

how tf am I gonna survive until September ?