For the last two years, I've gone from worse to what ever the fuck this is

internal reckoning & music fighting to occupy me is so much amusing until one wins

I can't really figure out if I actually love her or if I'm just obsessed with the idea of her

I've become the shit human being I never wanted to be

This is what happens when you got shit parents

There is no hope, there was never hope and their will never be hope

I do believe in Karma yet I can't seem to stop

I need to take back control

love, love, love, love enough with this fucking bulls#!t psyop

The unholy amount of rage I've swallowed to remain kind, would have buried you

I was too mature at 16 for puberty, but late puberty is finally here.

Stuck in her orbit like a stray asteroid. Too close to leave, too far to ever land

just burned out doing nothing

It was love at first rejection, damn

It just always gets worse and never gets better

I've written so many things in so many places I can barely remember anything

I never once wanted fame or fortune. All I ever wanted was freedom, just to be by myself doing whatever the fuck I want

I might be everything that's wrong with life

maybe I too sold my soul at a discount

Always knew I was way fucked, but lately I'm realizing just how deep in it I actually am