Arrived for the funeral. Stuff is really sad and surreal.

Finally seeing orthopedic tomorrow...kinda nervous what they will say. It's really hard functioning like this.

I've been awkwardly writing using speech to text on my phone. It's been rly nice, I'm thinking of maybe posting it later

My uncle passed away a few days ago, it's been really hard on my dad. Us too...memento mori.

That is quite the large undertaking, especially since I am so used to keeping things to myself. It's a little hard to open up.

I've been thinking before I go I really want to create an archive of my strange thoughts online, maybe that's a sort of afterlife in itself

I miss chatting w/ppl online. It was nice. There are a lot of ppl who I miss, but I'm not sure they'd be interested in talking again.

I've been working a ton on voice notes for Val story stuff... I've gotten back into thinking about him. Rly miss him. Been rly fun.

I keep thinking about Henry Darger, how he created this colossal world in secret, just to survive. I completely understand.

I'd like to join more groups online and make friends but I'm scared I'll mess up and ruin things. I wish I was better at this.

Decades without in-person contact changes you man.

Been feeling super unwell and lonely. Right hand very useless, just can't do anything without it flaring. Using voice for phone.

Don't know what's going on with Moo. He's acting ok for the most part but keeps licking his bottom. Dealing with the pica issues is so hard

I keep wondering if I should reach out to people or if I'm just being annoying. I'm really bad at reading this stuff.

Really want to do stuff like draw or work on the site or literally anything, but I'm learning that any little thing I do causes a flare 😔

Feeling really isolated. Dr says it's really affecting my health. No irl friends. There's something wrong with me where I always screw it up

The guy has an incredible work ethic, that's for sure. On my second rewatch of the Outbreak movie as I rest up.

I love the tamers12345 animations, it's so surreal to see him gaining a fandom after watching his stuff for a decade.

Overdid it with my wrist. I never learn 😞

It's going to be a long night. I keep on waking up with electrical shocks going down my arms