Back. It's hot. Going to try to work on one post a day, starting tomorrow. Also get to walk tonight!

I planned on returning Monday, but with this heatwave and the fact my desk/table is going to get a refresh (takes a few days), maybe not.

On Windows 11 LTSC. Lost my library of pirated movies, but oh well. Not too much difference in performance, but at least I get updates now.

Still going through the withdrawal, same amount of anxiety & everything else. This heat doesn't help. Still walking & doing night yoga.

I am so stressed out. I know it's the anxiety.

Going through withdrawal likely for another few weeks, just decided to take a net break during this time.

Day 4 of no benzos. Also see my psych today. I'm dehydrated despite how much water I drink; withdrawal or heat or both?

Wired, hot, tired. Lorazepam is a weak benzo, can't imagine the withdrawal from the stronger ones.

Haven't started my yoga yet; I'm trying to walk at night, but it's always 90*F. Also, ativan withdrawal.

Slowly moving my sleeping pattern back a bit for the rest of summer, as I won't be running. And.. med change starts today.

I messed up my medications today, damn. Not a big deal, just means I slept half the day away & am super tired.

Up late; tried an adderall earlier, and the cat piddled on my blankets. Washing them now. (She's a senior.)

Starting yoga tomorrow. Today? Day off, also therapy.

Back into running today; got up early for it! Also going to try to write today! eta: Think yoga is for summer.

(Mostly) hiatus while I figure out my benefits & get back into running. Being online a lot is overwhelming me. I need to self-care.

Self-care day. Nails (I do myself) & deep self-care shower!

Nothing scares me anymore; I got that summertime sadness.

I leave in about 2 1/2 hours to go to the bank! If Bank of America denies me, I'll never bank with them again!

No walk today, but trip to the bank tomorrow, so walk then. It is HOT. Sitting in my room with the roomie & fans going with the AC.

Busy day today; moderate stream, order groceries, hang out, listen to the storm & pray the power doesn't go out.