..ok now that game jam is out of the way.. i'm not working on anything for a lil while now (⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠) ..apart from uni assignments ofc :P

it's 2am and there's nothing else to do but play sanctum 2 ^^

..why do depressive phases (which aren't even related to my projects) always seem to happen when i'm working on a game jam game..? ;-;

..if i want to grow my hair out,, why do i keep pulling it out..?

depression strikes again, as it usually does </3 ..all i can say is thank goodness the suicidal thoughts haven't returned yet..

midnight. tried to fall asleep for 3 hours but it just isn't happening.. (should probably just pull an all-nighter at this point ^^;;)

..recently thought of a random headcanon about my identity.. which is kinda whimsical so I'm keeping it,, heehee

just cut myself 4 times.. i think that breaks the streak of 'no self-harming'

..it's 2am.. why did my brain just randomly decide that now is the time to wake up..?

heehee.. my first game modding experience.. the game? Wilmot's Warehouse ^^;;

waaahh q(≧▽≦q) ..how are people reading the stuff i write..? it doesn't make any sense :O

..i hope it doesn't return ;~; ..i can't deal with that right now

..there's one hypothetical question i could try asking..

we should be able to be who we really want to be.. why and how is that so difficult ( >Д<；)

i think my paranoias are only getting worse </3

my heart is beginning to feel weak again ;~;

there's no point in waiting for a message that's never gonna arrive.. because no one ever messages me..

how naive of me to assume things would get better..

is this the part where i realise life is essentially a character selection screen..?

feeling a lil better now..! thanks @nyamazon and @cleanair (⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠)