highlighting all my flaws in my thoughts at 5am.. guess the depression is intensifying.. ;-;

i wanna talk to someone,, anyone.. but there's no one..

first day tomorrow.. I can already feel the anxieties and paranoias building ;~;

even if i don't make any friends.. i'll still have the best bestie o(≧▽≦)o

yep.. lonely as ever.. (..and why don't we add depression onto that too..)

someone followed me on github :O all that's there is my portfolio site and a really old repo of my neocities,, which did they like? and why?

it's not fair.. my past friends keep appearing in my dreams.. i just want one more conversation.. is that too much to ask..?

wait.. omg,, it's all making a little more sense now.. and, tbh, i'm not sure what to think of that.. ⁄⁠(⁠⁄⁠ ⁠⁄⁠•⁠⁄⁠-⁠⁄⁠•⁠⁄⁠ ⁠⁄⁠)⁠⁄

i encountered so many terrible things today.. i feel awful now (；`⌒`)

..an idea for a story surrounding my sona surfaces,, i simply have to write it right now (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠✧⁠*⁠。

love how when i wake up the first thing that happens is i have the longest nose bleed known to mankind..

..gonna start painting my room purple soon (⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠)

feeling really miserable all of a sudden ;-;

..wonder whether i should start seeing a therapist..?

..just realised i'm crying myself to sleep over these thoughts.. what is happening..?

i've been thinking about it non-stop for three hours today and it's making me so miserable..

it was only a few days ago.. most of my friends have no idea it's changed.. not even i'm used to the change yet even if it's what I wanted..

it's what i wanted.. so, why does it seem so distant from me..?

well.. it's definitely one way of potentially curing my social anxiety thats for sure :P

just got a warning for wildfires on my phone.. the emergency sound scared the life out of me.. could we not have super warm weather now..