i think i use all my hope and positivity up on my friends and leave none for myself.. ;-;

maybe i'm just a bad omen.. maybe we both are..?

woah.. two days and i've been feeling kinda fine.. something's wrong,, i can feel it..

i really need to not let the feelings of my friends get me down so much.. i was already feeling super miserable..

..i fear i may have contributed to someone else's misery with my own misery ;~; (..unless i'm overthinking it.. as per usual..)

..i can't stand this anymore.. when will it end..?

..no words.. </3

anxiety is making my legs feel like jelly ;~; ..why on earth was i shaking so much..?

i think i'd like my ability to focus back now.. it's been wayy too long now..

omg omg,, that's potentially two people who have (or had) desktop wallpapers set that I made :O that's kinda insane and means a lot!!

..don't get dragged down by it.. don't get dragged down by it.. don't get dragged down by it..

..my hair is finally growing longer (⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠) ..shame it might not last >:(

omg,, you're telling me i was overthinking a potential halloween costume after halloween's ended..?! oh well,, maybe next year..?

oh dear,, a pang of gender dysphoria is not what i wanted at 6am.. anyways,, happy birthday Raven!

..i'll be thinking of you tomorrow, bestie <33

..I can't get it out of my mind.. why did they have to say that last night..? ..it's only adding to the dysphoria ;~;

..looking through all your old status.cafe posts is like a time capsule.. teehee

..at least we have each other at the end of the day, bestie <33

..see,, i was right.. i would've just been an interruption if i messaged.. probably like i always am..

i'll just continue to wish for something which won't happen.. like, ever ;~; ..it's just fucking false hope at this point..