It's been a while since I've felt completely absorbed in a book -- Babel by R. F. Kuang was probably the last one -- and I miss that feeling

I feel so tired and annoyed by people...

I feel like I'm existing but just barely

Today I heard Don't Wanna Cry by SVT playing in a store and it made me so happy I almost cried https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zEkg4GBQumc

"this is the longest work day ever" I say, every work day

I hope everyone reading the status stream on status.cafe is having a good day/night -- life is hard but we go harder

I'm bummed I haven't heard from my friend -- whom I consider my closest online friend -- in a while, but I know she has health challenges

Feeling proud of myself that I went to a social event for my school! Talked with ppl I hadn't met before.

A lot of life is realizing other people don't see me as close of a friend as I saw them. It's a sad feeling I'm trying to shake.

Thrilled to have moved to a new PDS, not just a custom domain on Bluesky's server! https://bsky.app/profile/heejinsoulyves.com

Moving to a different Bluesky PDS soon, I hope. Bluesky's moderation is garbage

keep going

https://bsky.app/profile/heejinsoulyves.bsky.social/post/3ly4rbd7pqc22

Thing I love today: Project Hail Mary! It's such an addictive read! // Thing I don't love today: Bluesky's Internal Server Error

reading: The Rage of Dragons rewatching: TLOU s2 playing: GTA Online drinking: cranberry + Mountain Dew listening: Yuju

brokenhearted over a beautiful song for a specific reason https://bsky.app/profile/heejinsoulyves.com/post/3lvi2agp3is25

I wish my default response/feeling weren't blaming myself and thinking I'm lacking when rly I was the one putting in more effort.

but I have to remind myself: that's not fair to me, and it's not reality. They can reciprocate more. I need to be kinder to myself.

Sometimes when I think about my book club and how I haven't clicked more w/them I get rly angry at myself and blame myself,

& I just haven't clicked with them super deeply. I know I could try harder to hang out w/them but frankly they don't do many fun activities.