I feel a little bit more like I can move forward now. Maybe I was just malnourished...

I wish I had someone I could rely on.

Why yes, I have been extremely stressed in recent weeks. No, no one has offered to lighten the burden.

I fear I am only good at leaving projects half-finished ...

There were things I wanted to do this month, but because of external factors, it's looking unlikely I can do them this year at all...

Today I read George Orwell's essay 'Politics and the English Language'. It made me think of Tiktok and Oscar Wilde. Highly recommend.

I think today has been a good day. Finally.

Despite my productivity, I feel so unproductive...

I feel like setting up my new laptop is truly the start of a new era for me. I hope I'm right.

Today is one of those days that makes me desperately want to quit this place... Lucky I'll be doing exactly that very soon~

Making decisions is easy, but actually executing them is another story...

The more I work towards proper goals, the more confident I feel. I think I'll soon be able to openly talk about my project~

tbh I'm sick of ppl at work assuming everyone is at a career dead end just bc they are. I'm here bc the short-term pay is good, thanks.

Got my first *big* pimple in a while and I am trying SO hard not to touch it or anything, but I'm just itching to rip the patch off!!!

Oppressive heat and more oppression.

So, yesterday I saw Wicked on stage. I feel like it was more a prototype for Legally Blonde than its own thing, but maybe that's just me.

I'm in a surprisingly good mood for a work day, but I think it's mostly because I'm excited about what I'll be doing tomorrow~

I just asked out loud "What am I doing with my life?" I think it's a sign I need to quit my job sooner, rather than later.

So if I work, I am miserable because I have no free time. If I don't work, I am miserable because I have no money. Huh...

I think I should focus on enjoying myself more while I still don't actually have to worry about *real* adulting.