i feel sooo out of it still

today was... a day? idk it just kinda happened

still hard to convince myself to sleep

...i miiiiiight move to nekoweb honestly...

started adhd meds today!! feeling good about the future

"but i don't think i'm impulsive" i say

i haven't updated this in a while huh. life's kicking me in the ass

kinda stressed but chilling in the grand scheme of things

when you keep worrying about plot holes in your story but you realize every time you try to poke one there's actually an explanation already

making up a rarepair (borderline crackship but they are from the same series) just because both of them are hot & look nice together

ren'py... i don't know python in the slightest but i'm gonna try

made the realization that ccg being on roblox would in fact be Several detriments to it. so now i need to figure out which engine and/or programming language i'm willing to learn

in my "withdraw from everyone" phase of the month. augh i hate it here.

getting silly with it. i say as i start deep-diving into enneagram because my brain said This is what we're hyperfixating on now ok? ok.

i constantly offhandedly say "i need to be medicated" but i mean it. clinging on to this psych referral for dear life. please help me.

okayyy okay i'm sleeping i'm going... no i don't have my sketchbook what are you talking about...

if i could put my fixations to good use like maybe actually doing my work i'd be golden but nOoOo i need to animate my ocs at 5am.

was that worth it? probably not. did i get content of my favorite ocs + ship out of it? hell yeah i did.

my executive dysfunction is genuinely getting so bad i feel trapped. i need to be medicated

how to explain i love these characters so much i want to be with them but i also would not want to be their third *or* theirs individually. i'm confusing myself