pdx chillin

AHHHHHHHHHH (writing in my diary)

coffee at coava trying to be calm

about to leave for the airport AGAIN

i don't want to do anything

i sort of feel like doing things for the first time in weeks and it's almost worse than wanting to do nothing at all

a staycation with a dear friend who is helping me fight my addiction

actually feeling not-so-bad today

stressed out

such a waste

just one could kill the pain

note to self: 16oz of coffee is very nearly always too much; silence, tachycardia !

exhausted

trying to stay hydrated w 6 stitches in my lip is H A R D

lookin for love in all the wrong places

no sleep for 24+ hours :'^)

got me meds!

i don't want to anymore