filling out disability paperwork ugh

messin with obsidian

withdrawals again hopefully for the last time ever

packed for my move from the time i woke up until now

packing for my move and trying not to freak out

might be moving to portland and i'm terrified

my stomach hurts

Floridughhh

pdx chillin

AHHHHHHHHHH (writing in my diary)

coffee at coava trying to be calm

about to leave for the airport AGAIN

i don't want to do anything

i sort of feel like doing things for the first time in weeks and it's almost worse than wanting to do nothing at all

a staycation with a dear friend who is helping me fight my addiction

actually feeling not-so-bad today

stressed out

such a waste

just one could kill the pain

note to self: 16oz of coffee is very nearly always too much; silence, tachycardia !