so unsafe for me and the driver to be obtuse about each other's contact info and status. not asking for gps and photos! just a basic update!

d**rd**h is so fucked 💀 i ordered a smth (not food but still) too far for me to get to and my god the communication is fucked

im working on making individual pages for my works and it's pretty fun and therapeutic i want to use as little javascript/jquery as possible

i miss doing drugs and drinking alcohol lmao

i cant keep waiting on some sort of sign. i feel like im going to claw out of my own skin. (maybe that's the sign?)

i need to take myself seriously as an artist. no wishing i had the skills to express myself. i'll never start if i wait for validation

i heard a sound i've heard too many times last night. a crash, screams, crying out for help. all i could do was dial 911. i hope she's ok...

everyone is fighting for their freedom from tyranny and genocide...surely i can find the strength to free myself from my self-hatred

i'm a failure

YOU CAN TRY TO PUT A BULLET IN MY HEAD BUT IF THAT REALLY WORKED I WOULD BE ALREADY DEAD

no matter what she says i cant shake the fear she has the same disdain for me

what does healing look like for someone like me? pathetic, impoverish, unstable, inflammatory, rotten, hateful, discarded. am i salvageable?

in a few years this body he defiled will be rebuilt but i am afraid my scars and callouses have rendered me unrecognizable

HE CARVED ME OUT. FOUND THE HOLE OTHER MEN MADE, RIPPED OUT MY GUTS FOR HIS OWN PLEASURE. I AM A CARCASS. DID I DESERVE IT?

my spine shatters from the whiplash! starved for love but crumbling under her weight! i ask you: am i made of stars? or food for worms?

LOOKING TO CAUSE PROBLEMS

I NEED TO SCREAM I NEED TO SCREAM I NEED TO SCREAM I NEED TO SCREAM I NEED TO SCREAM I NEED TO SCREAM I NEED TO SCREAM I NEED TO SCREAM

TELL ME HOW MY ASS TASTES LITTLE BOTTOM FEEDER

snorting my ritalin just to feel something

even if i don't get this job, existing safely in a place that feels connected to those who have harmed me has given me some of my power back