i have barely left my bed the past week. i am rotting

depressed again but it could be bcz i didnt take my meds this morning

i really wish i knew how to write. i hate that everything comes out like a little kid wrote it.

i have succesfully forgotten about everything that was making me depressed lately so im fine again

idk anymore. stuffs fine i guess.

car seat headrest save me. save me car seat headrest. car seat headrest. save me.

im so desperate i genuinely looked into shifting today just so i could trick myself into thinking i can go to a world where im not a dropout

dropping out of school actually has ruined my life. even my therapist admits i will never be on the same level as other people. i hate this.

ok i think im done being depressed now

i feel like shit pt 2

153 scrobbles in one day and every single one of them was csh

i feel like shiiiiiiit

today i deleted my entire index and had to rebuild it using a very outdated backup, life is going attrociously

im in the stage of my csh obsession cycle where i want to die because my psyche cannot handle how much i love this band

got back from trip last night, i am tired and (unrelatedly) depressed.

having a fun time minus the anxiety attack

about to spend 5 days with my gf!! <3

no one understands how much i love csh

i was literally getting on my PC to put a depressing status on here but then i saw i got an email and i am now over the moon. god is real /j

crying bcz i feel like my website is ugly and therefore the only thing thats been making me want to wake up in the morning is worthless.