i be like "my brain is fucked up and evil and twisted" and the fucked up evil twisted thing in question is that i have a crush

got dressed up to go to the store for a few groceries & then was too tired/anxious to actually go so i've been lying in bed for an hour lol

i've been so obsessed w/ this album lately, it's so good ;; https://open.spotify.com/album/0vNRRCWpBDNpSHoWBkFDcA?si=VwfUihAQSIKrgFgZSDFaHA

just made a spacehey :-0 i don't think i'll use it much though https://spacehey.com/bumblingbats

i just want to be a normal happy functional person i don't understand why it's so hard

kinda crazy that i haven't really watched drag race before now but i am making up for lost time

i feel like i am getting better!! i talked to friends today on discord and tomorrow i will hang out with people... leave the house... crazy

always making myself feel worse

today is my last day at my internship and tomorrow im flying home and im scared i will just go depression mode again

shut up shut up shut up shut up!

my website has been my coping mechanism but now that it's not as new + interesting anymore the bad feelings are coming back send help

it's so hard to focus on work i wish i were good at things i wish things hadn't ended up the way they did i wish i were better

i do not understand how to embed this thing in my website it just will not work ;;;;

at work and literally have no idea what to do