scared to commit. scared to back down. scared scared scared.

god i'm bad at making social media posts. i know it's cuz of the Trauma and shit but. every time i open bsky to say smth i just clam up.

that feeling of wanting to create but not knowing how.

i keep telling myself i'll use my bsky more than i ever used my twitter, but it's hard when my thoughts feel always so fucking depressing.

its been like 3 weeks and i've only made it thru like. 1 1/2 books. i'm kinda ashamed of myself. what the fuck.

tfw ur doing Just Fine but ur brain decides it wants to start crying instead. like no haha ur so smexy don't start crying over nothing..!

(sobbing) i don't care abt these comics so much. i just don't care. why must i pain myself by reading thru them.

ohh i can feel my brain getting upset again. like please don't have a breakdown, is that so much to ask.

the frustrating feeling of knowing your brains gonna give up on a project before its finished, even if u fight it tooth n nail.

hate when i'm trying to do something and depression sucker punches me in the mouth. i'm so tired.

the robot emoji just always reminds me of transformers earthspark. i love it.

god. indecision. i have so much shit to read its making me STALL on actually doing it. unreal.

using this site as a way to get re-accustomed to sharing my thoughts online instead of keeping them to myself. it's a hard process.

(chanting to myself) the first step of being good at smth is sucking. i'm one step closer to being good at smth. sucking is FINE.

kinda like this place better than other social media. its nice.

oh.. i didn't know status pages on here could be customized....... god, now i need to figure out how to do that.

milk and honey is really not a good book. jfc is it hilarious though.

gets high to avoid thinking abt politics. thisll do, i guess.

i don't want to think about politics. i don't want to think about politics. i do Not want to think about politics. please. god.

starting to think i might be that unemployed friend on a tuesday that's up to weird hijinks n shit.