Trying to update the "mood" thing below because 'dead' is a tad dramatic now. Not sure why, but I can't.

Is bemoaning my situation all I can do? I feel so far from God.

Sorry I haven't been active. Hours feel like weeks... I haven't been doing well lately.

I solemnly swear to use this status thing as a lazy mini-blog insert than a vent-space. I want this thang to look a little more neat.

Jeez, what a time this Summer has been so far. I'm a mess. Am I actually gonna get a job at the end of the month..? Uugh.

Why is there such a dull ache tonight..? I'm drowning...

I'm doing what I can, and I thought I did okay, but to you I'm still just a stupid bitch. Why do I even breathe?

Heart broken. Emotionally dead. I guess that leaves time for my stupid brain to focus on other things now.

Highschool is oovvverrrrr......

I'm not a dog, I'm not YOUR dog, I'm myself and these chains are mine to hold. Not yours.

I will succeed and I will live and you will see that I am not nothing. I am not wasted. You don't know my fate.

It's okay.

I am literally about ready to kill myself. I can't anymore.

I'm the biggest idiot.

Apparently bees can do MATH and they ENGAGE IN PLAY ????

put down the phone and chill out for a bit

AAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH I JUST LEARNED SOMETHING AWFUL AWUGH AUGH AUDGH AGHDGHGHGHLSGA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH

Feeling a tad lonely.

Seniour Thesis has me questioning the truth of Everything at 533 AM

My heart aches and I need God, but God I don't know how much more I can take...