I wish they had told me sooner and I could have apologised. I wish they had told me more. I am so glad they told me eventually.

Well. Yeah. But also I have had sex now. So there is that?

probably overreacting a bit. wish i could just chill tf out. good excuse for a drink either way though

funny how I used to yearn for stubble and now there's nothing I love more than a clean shave

texted instead of pining in misery are you proud. i do sometimes realise when i'm not helping myself

impromtu 6am was actually kind of fun might fuck around and do it again sometime

Either I've been coming out of denial about something I should really pay attention to and address or I'm way overthinking everything

why do my requited feelings actually feel illegal. i like them?? they like me back?? i'm so happy?? it's as easy as that??

realising i'm invested in my life enough that i don't want to go back to my old obsessive relationships with fandom ... liberation

this day's been such a car crash i might just go to bed and listen to a symphony

trying to fight the urge to just crumble and collapse in on myself but powering through seems equally unhealthy so what am I meant to do

Stop trying to escape from the romantic into the sexual dipshit when you're with him the two are perpetually inextricable

forgot March could be this good :,)

yeahhh please don't worry about it that's exactly what i want (fingers crossed behind my back so hard)

laundry vs early night.....hm.........(has already made up his mind).......

well yeah i have 3 assignments, 2 books to read, painting to do, WIPs to work on, lyrics to write, music to play, laundry to do,,,,,

so the plan for thursday to maximise vibes is to be staying sober until i let them get me drunk... i mean what a way to go about it

moving from imagining making out to remembering making out is a beautiful transition but either way i can't fuckin concentrate lmao

insane how i miss him after 2 days.. down so bad lmao

well if the haircut isn't great tomorrow can it at least be good for the date on sunday :)