slept a bit and i’m normaller. sleep schedule is fucked though lmao

colors are strange at the moment. sort of pulsating in and out as glossier and richer and then duller in waves

still can't sleep. think i['m losing my mind a little (lottle) bit

having conditions that impact my ability to recognize my face makes me feel like a dog failing the mirror test lmfao

the diversity data on the program is abysmal holy shit lmao😭

it’s kinda wild how full you can be off of avocado and like. egg

the carrot cake with caramel frosting was so fucking good i can’t believe i didn’t inhale the whole thing

contemplating getting on the dating apps downtown and then laid down and remembered how awful college dudes are LMAO

(chewing on cardboard) i don’t do well when left to my own devices. i miss my older brother

genuinely diabolical how bad i am at this. maybe dating an engineering dude instead of an arts guy would work out this time

(me when my life is even briefly stable) what if i fucked it up by getting into another relationship that winds up being abusive

contemplating getting a boyfriend with the same serious consideration as trapping a pet bug into a jar with a leaf and stick

i’ve been colouring and working on these stupid planner spreads for over fourteen hours now

need to make another email. i’ll get around to it eventually

least well adjusted environmental engineering grad student in a room full of Engineering Men

sucks to remember that you will Never be anyone’s first priority. unless you get into a romantic relationship

my dad and i both having INSANE caffeine addictions is a horrible combo lmfao

girl help how can i clown on STEM men when *IM* going to be a E Man

huh. have learned that another name for the weird convoluted one we have is environmental engineering which. explains a lot

i'm going through some kind of episode. girl i CANNOT sleep. i do NOT pull all nighters but im wired as fuck on like no caffeine. christ