weeping in the morning hours before everyone else wakes up feels weirdly cinematic

ive lost a noticeable amount of weight to people who know me in real life from being so fucking depressed and sick i havent been eating well

its sad when things outlive their usefulness

sucking on jollyranchers like mmmmmmm bee potions

nostalgia is a filthy liar lmfao coffee doesnt taste nearly as good as i remember even with a pinch of salt to even out the harsh grinds

uhm anyways. coffee is a miracle potion and its crazy how much more bright and alert and wakeful you feel while drinking it

haha uh oh. having the energy to do things is awesome until you realize the suicidal ideation is still super strong

fuuuuuck okay so coffee does indeed transform me into a functional human being who can just think and do things this is crazy

chugged sink water and i fell asleep roughly for like eleven hours

ten? eleven? idk i’m fucking dehydrated as hell

fucking hell i fell asleep for like fourteen hours

added a rudimentary sitemap since ive had multiple people reach out to me about not being able to use the navi bar (no javascript)

adding the cat stamps on my website makes me so happy looking at the silly kitties on my header LOL

blaugust back up posts are so smart lmao

finally got around to tackling a task that’s been rotting on my to do list for like a month. go me

it’s lowkey kind of disturbing seeing where people you knew ended up. like wow… people aren’t even aware?? but that’s not my fight to battle

drinking matcha tea while curled up on the stairs. private lime’s videos have been keeping me company at least lmao

whatever forever i’m getting an engineering masters im gonna be sooooo normal 😭

genuinely crazy to me how the world rewards morally bankrupt behaviour but Whatever

had fun using the silicon scrubbie for my hair to stop breaking my damn nails lmao