i can’t sleep. my sleep schedule has been so fucked ever since i had that episode

weirdly freeing to not play guess between the lines / deliberately ignoring passive aggression instead of direct communication

anyways the ruthless curation of my social circle was a good idea. more time to embroider anyway lmao

ngl it’s crazy how many people literally will never once reach out of their own accord if you don’t contact them first. go fuck yourself

idk why i have a splitting headache and im mad about it

gods cruellest joke was making it so my incurable physical health issues would prevent me from medication that i KNOW help me mentally

it’s diabolical how i can’t derive enjoyment from things i love and do dutifully and also just feel either rage about it or Nothing

it was snowing earlier today. incredible spring weather

depression is so stupid. i’ll be like hm wonder why life feels meaningless and empty. oh yeah. the Can’t Enjoy Things Trait

haven’t drawn in months because i’ve just been dealing with the nightmare symptoms of anhedonia and general apathy to hobbies…

anhedonia is insane because what do you mean i don’t want to watch episodes ive put off for a decade and loved. tf

being disabled is figuring out bizarre ways to work in a little exercise to your routine while hoping not to destroy your ability to walk

even with cutting my sugar intake i’m still SUCH a baby eating lemon about dark chocolate. shame for these pretzels

it’s not ghosting if i’m finally putting the ball in their court. lmfao. i’ve been dragging this corpse behind me for years. putting it down

did laundry. nightmare depeche mode task over

inordinately sleepy little guy. embroidered for four hours. my yearly embroidery ghost visitation? over

revamped my layout page for my blog entries since i yap way more on there and it was getting clunky. love a good table

finished out my first journal of the year which is insane. gonna blawg about it

we have broccoli in the house so Hello, Me. Prepare to eat nothing but it for the next two days

double cleansed and wearing citrusy hand lotion to pair with the lavender body wash. i smell deliciously like spring