THE ATOM FEED TO DISCORD WORKS NOW OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHRIUGFHWFEBWEBEWR YAAYYY

waiiit NVMMM STAYING UP PAID OFF

drinking orange juice right now ^_^

like excuse you wtf? honor their wish to be in nature if its an obvious suicide. we do not have to be forced into a grave or being ashes.

it angers me humans will see other human remains in nature & call the authorities, disrespecting the persons wishes.

sooo i did what i could on discord tonight. i'm going to sleep soon. productive plans tomorrow.

okay back to normal updates that are hopefully short since its character limited anyway

i decide what happens to my body even in death. not the system. i'll be so far in the woods no one in my lifetime could touch me

well its a good thing i decide when its over.

i have the right 2 have a natural decomposition in nature without fear of my remains legally going 2 my abusers. fuck you all & this system.

i cant work until im old & die. i wont even have a funeral or grave or be creamated & given to someone bc im familyless. fuck that.

its the insanity of the same routine. friends/family prevent this insanity. when you dont have plans like the zombies do you go insane

I was always okay with being alone because ive been alone my whole life. i prefer it but at the same time

btw i can go back on my word earlier to keep this personal-ish since i cant even put updates on discord from here lol oh well

all of this for what? i just want to be happy, thats the point of me existing & life. so i need to do my trips & die. thatll make me happy.

life ruined. stood no chance. all of that for me to end up in my early 20s alone, no family, working to survive on my own

no family or friends to make life worth it or fun. just alone because i was unfortunate to have a child abuser as my birth giver.

boring is the wrong word, i mean, the same thing over & over. working until im 70 & dying in debt. the same routine going insane

i do things like stream on twitch, try to find hobbies related to my vtubing... but life is still so boring without family or real friends

if the point of life is to be happy then why am i not happy. i know why but you get what i mean.