yay birthday gifts

try to fix fundamental personality issues ❌ use phone for 9 hours a day ✅

lighting practice...

how to kill yourself for beginners

and after a good day still the feeling comes what then.

got told I act like a robot again

had my first mental health group thingy today. got free chips

I've heard certain psychiatric medication makes you feel nothing emotion-wise. sounds pretty good to me

how hard is it to admit I'm a piece of shit and nobody should care about me? seems kinda obvious

ah forgot to say. 21 days (yippee?), 28 in total now.

had another dream about my friend

hate this

hate being some degree of self aware bcs I know I'm evil no I'm too stupid and mean to do anything about it

8/8 of mentioned mood symptoms of PMDD. bruh

leg pain

mental health appointment...

had a dream about my friend

eek!!!

mew

so tired of being alive