Im not capable of change and you know it

>refuses gift because it will stress me out >opens status.cafe to stress self out >stress leads to suicidal ideation >stop looking for me

as always

still coughing and my body wants mee to throw up

i hate mood swings because by the time people notice it's ended and i feel like an attention seeker

i still wanna kill myself but at least it's less immediate

feeling like a kid who doesnt wanna go to bed

guys when they do something to hurt themselves and it ends up hurting them

had a wonderful idea although it would push me more into neurotic territory

trying not to cut everyone off and just kill myself is really hard can I get a treat. god can I please just have a treat

trying to explain why bitch is a loaded term makes me feel like Sisyphus

i just need to develop multiple mental illnesses and then it'll be ok

told her i won't kill myself tonight so ig i don't get to

haven't been this scratched up since middle school 🤣

im tired of this

every time i think of him i want to die

mood swings + poor memory + making things worse on purpose combo is so fucked

I really am nothing to him anymore

another day another "i remembered to cut my nails but forgot multiple times throughout the day and didn't get it done"

i frew up :(