can't sleep because im too HAPPY!!!!!!!!! the world is beautiful #neverkillyourself

i feel so much better but hungry

one of my cuts started bleeding again in the shower fuck my stupid baka life

I miss you, but you're all better off without me

I will always turn the gift away even if I want it because I hate myself

I'm sorry you had to deal with me, and I'm sorry I can't get rid of myself for you

you know I won't

+20. makes me feel better

Im not capable of change and you know it

>refuses gift because it will stress me out >opens status.cafe to stress self out >stress leads to suicidal ideation >stop looking for me

as always

still coughing and my body wants mee to throw up

i hate mood swings because by the time people notice it's ended and i feel like an attention seeker

i still wanna kill myself but at least it's less immediate

feeling like a kid who doesnt wanna go to bed

guys when they do something to hurt themselves and it ends up hurting them

had a wonderful idea although it would push me more into neurotic territory

trying not to cut everyone off and just kill myself is really hard can I get a treat. god can I please just have a treat

trying to explain why bitch is a loaded term makes me feel like Sisyphus

i just need to develop multiple mental illnesses and then it'll be ok