thanks to the anxiolytics, maybe its not that deep

i ended up downing a bottle; my hepatitis flamed up so painfully, but what can i do? its so hard and i cant give up. alcohol headaching now

honestly? i wanna cry but i physically cant #selflearner

maybe my sadness is stored in my coccyx

fuck xor, boolean, binary, conversion, modulo, dh, fuck you all. i will love/fuck you even if you fucking hate me

maybe it wouldnt be that bad that none of them are staying if they choose 2 come back just for me. maybe my heart'd survive their freedom

im sooo into these redpilled stoicism edits

i would have loved so much for her to stay with me longer... our morning together was so comforting. i love my wife

today my wife is taking me out for a pandan cloud to cheer me up, my heart is overflowing with love and gratitude

whenever im not grinding i feel my broken heart - what a shitty deal. i should study even saturday and sunday

why am i so tired and sleepy... fuck me i must grind!!!

okaaaay maybe i shouldnt torture myself about my promise. i can aim my trip in november 2027. its more realistic. yes. relax

in my bossa nova season

sometimes life doesn't give you what you think you want (smiskis), but it gives you what you need (other smiskis)

i love waking up to natural light but its so unpredictable like i might wake up just in time for class or 2 hours early

i have to get out of bed and study <3 nothing is more important than my professional success <3

my stomach is in knots from all the caffeine and sadness but at least im making progress in class

pure anxiety in the middle of my night

zoning out in front of my classes, whereami

i broke up with m. so im viscerally hurting like a dog but at least our love is pure so its going to be alright