i think i wanna end it all soon.

i don't like being alone with my thoughts i need to do something or i start thinking about killing myself again and i don't have time for that

retiring my ko-fi (it's still gonna be up! i'm not abandoning it!!) and moved commissions over to artistree! https://artistree.io/tiramisuv4x

wait... what if i did semi-monthly polls on what themes should i use for any future f2u templates i might make... hmm...

i swear i don't really plan on adding more stuff to my new homepage i'm just adding what makes sense to me aaaaghhh

i need to spread my silly little guys to more people. so uh if you want a funny fella in your devices and also help me regain the grocery money that was stolen from me even just a tiny bit: https://ko-fi.com/creambytes/commissions

i'm thinking of doing more traditional art stuff with my colored pencils and watercolors, might make a separate art gallery page for them

found out someone in the family has been stealing the funds i've been earning from commissions. that was for grandma's groceries for this month now what do i give her. i hate it here

(edit: i'm going to sleep now, will continue site updates tomorrow byeee) the electricity here was out since around 11pm afternoon so i apologize for the brief absence... but we are so fucking back ya'll

ok, i'm normal now, i had to get some things out of my system

sometimes i think about just deleting my entire site when i start hating on it a little more than usual

jshk getting plagiarized(?) in shonen jump is not something i expected to happen this year like what

new blog post is out go look at it now!!! https://electric-tenshi.nekoweb.org/blog/posts/2025-08-21-how-do-i-tune

some of you people worry me sometimes

related to my last status, i made a poll to choose which of my main vsynth programs to feature in that blog post i'm working on: https://electric-tenshi.nekoweb.org/poll

kinda wanna make a tutorial(?) blog on how i normally do my vsynth tuning... is anyone interested in learning my usual process...?

are alcohol markers worth the price the cheapest one i found is an ohuhu set around 1k but uhhh im not so sure

i wish i wasn't so lonely all the time. i wish i can be happy without feeling guilty about it the next second. i wish i had someone truly understand what i'm going through rn

hananene is literally always finding each other in every universe they make me sick!!! 😭😭

thank you for the food aidairo...