and i hate hate hate being in trouble because im supposed to be the good kid im just the perfect daughter im so good for them ill never ever

he is nnot really even a "Dad" to me he is just my Father but i call him dad because if i dont ill get in trouble

i was such a good kid, why did i have to go and ruin it all?

one day i really will lose my marbles and they'll all be sorry. they'll all be sorry i just need a few more years, please please

search history: is it wrong to want to tell the man who caused my suicidal ideation to kill himself with no repercussions

voice of middle class second generation immigrant with loving, moral parents: this home is a prison

like SURE he fulfilled my physical needs (maslow moment) but what was the point of that if before i turned 10 i already wanted it to be over

the term father is so funny to me. like ok sperm donor. guy who gave 50% of my dna. i dont care for dad figures because the one i had sucked

let's say i theoretically, hypothetically, walked into traffic but not before writing a 90-page letter blaming my father for all of it,

tmrw mornings gonna be like "hey are you ok" and ill go huh? guy with emotional memory of a goldfish. yet another Father Event who gaf

ok ill admit im lying it wasnt normal mood swings yes i freaked out over my dad again no i will not bring it up with a counselor leave me al

tonight was great because i had a meltdown and then immediately after started wondering how best to phrase it on status.cafe

literally why is suicide a sin when its not my fault ideation was my only way of catharsis when i was a kid hit send

having mood swings is so funny one minute ill be reading fortuna the next ill be thinking about telling my dad to kill himself

thinking abt using gabriel then dumping him outside bc hes nothing when not in use/an insignificant object living as nothing but a tool

800 pages of fortuna left scary

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xss virus!! i removed it from mine already, but check your profiles!

ignore previous status im fine lol