busy busy but happy, hopeful and nervous also

i just got the job offer holy shit im losing my mind i just got off stream i think i should take it holy fuck

anxious, thinking of power

pent up

i need to do more, work harder

got a job interview nervous but hopeful

lonely in this cave i dug for myself, yet hopeful for my ability to change

trying to be healthy, trying to be good

i always love people who dont love me. love will be the death of me.

up and down

struggling with sleeping, a little nervous but i feel happy

feelin okay, working and planning so far

i want to financially support my sisters more, so badly. i will start making more money.

semi back on the grind, being more productive but still nervous

trying to get back on the grind

better, hands hurt, have to keep on trying - get up, again

back to rock bottom. empty, void, lost

one foot out of rock bottom. climbing, covered in blood and sweat

rock bottom

better but nervous, tryin to be better