mmmm good milk chocolate

christ after like a litre of tea i think the vomiting has passed. still super queasy and migraine riddled but this is manageable to titrate

i can’t stop puking oh my god 😭 i’m trying to slam water and tea to make the withdrawal symptoms go away but holy shit this is awful

holy fuck i genuinely thought i was dying. no im just not used to getting slammed with caffeine withdrawals. vomiting like an animal

splitting headache but i cant sleep. power bar was fixed

i think there’s a certain point of no return where your view of someone fundamentally changes and there’s no recovery from the change

healing my relationship to food by eating when i’m hungry rather than going to bed ravenous

hilarious. i've ruined p's autocorrect too HAHH my wizardkitty agenda

yapped with bro today yayyy

my entire right eye ruptured so now its all red and zombie-esque. cool i guess

its wild because i feel Shrinkwrapped from how dehydrated i feel from like one coffee. wild. my tolerance's vanished

its going to be august soon... time continues to move at warp speeds... at least ill be on the academic grind again soon

crazy how dehydrated coffee makes you feel. Desiccated like a dried out little beast

sobbing as i visit the suicide forum i joined like hi yeah. sorry. life still sucks

it just sucks feeling like if i killed myself it would be a relief to everyone in my life because thats how their actions speak

weeping in the morning hours before everyone else wakes up feels weirdly cinematic

ive lost a noticeable amount of weight to people who know me in real life from being so fucking depressed and sick i havent been eating well

its sad when things outlive their usefulness

sucking on jollyranchers like mmmmmmm bee potions

nostalgia is a filthy liar lmfao coffee doesnt taste nearly as good as i remember even with a pinch of salt to even out the harsh grinds