yes im aware of how cringe my old statuses were here.... also lucies fine. im so worried abt her though bc of some personal things, but im sure she'll be fine. tbh i havent been able to msg her at all, its been months, like usual, & i feel tons of guilt for it. but i HATE msging someone i care abt if im not doing well mentally, so id rather be a bad friend & ignore until im better. its been rough months for me but probably harder on her. i hope youre okay lucie, i love you

i need to sleep goodnight status cafe >_<

why are humans so cruel & evil. i hate them.

im in my "young adult" years yet i am so old, fragile & weak as if i was 100 years old. i need to die (uh late teens/early 20s is young adult right? ik some people think 21+ is old for example but it isnt old to me lol. i feel like 35+ is old..er?)

got banned from tiktok mid conversation with my friend today LMFAOOO. i didnt even do or post anything bad, tiktok just hates tcc ☠️

im gonna miss lucie but who am i to interfere with someones journey to peace or whatever she may be seeking. :( thinking of her. i want her to live & be happy..

i cant wait to experience the void again. i also wish lucie didnt back out of our plan... i was really flattered that someone as amazing as her wanted to die with me! but its okay. i'll just die alone, i guess its for the best. i honestly rly love her & im glad she wont die young. shes amazing & has potential to find happiness. its best we didnt sui-duo. but me, theres zero chance i'll end up happy like her. i wish her the best in life. i love you lucie even though im a horrible friend

i couldnt find if this site has rules so hopefully i dont break any but my thoughts everyday 24/7 is how much i need to die lmfao. ☠️

my last summer as a youth